Lent 2011

Oh hello blog. Yes, you guessed it right. It's that time of the year again when people slow down and reflect.

Hn? I always slow down and reflect you say? Not as much as I used to before 2010, my dear beloved blog. So.. now that's aside, here are some of the things that I wish to share to you.

Career
While I can't say all is finally well and that I am settled with my work, I must say that moving into sales and working with SMDC (SM Development Corp.) has been the best move so far. It's with SMDC that I got to finally grow both professionally and personally. It is with this company that I got to find new friends. Friends whom I can consider as either my brothers or sisters from different mothers. It is with SMDC that I got to stand up again. Where I was finally able to let get go of the past. To really forgive people who were once my enemies but to never forget the lessons that I've learned. It is with the people who I work with here that I learned how to smile and simply be happy.

I do have to admit that I'm currently frustrated with my performance in spite of the fact that I'm already over-quota for my current contract. The old me would've been ecstatic about my feat. But what I'm after right now is consistency. I have no plans of being a "one hit wonder". I do admit that I'm happy as to where I am now but I want to be better. To symbolically put it, I'm tired of flying at low-level, near the ground; I want to be flying up high in the sky to where Icarus melted his wax wings and fell; to be at that place where I could be seen dancing with the angels.

I know I could do it and I have to do it soon.


Family
Well, what can I say? Granted that there are still a few disagreements here and there but so far, things have been going great. I no longer see my home as a weary draggy place. Though I have to admit that my parents' over-protectiveness can be very irritating at times, it's their way of showing love and affection and for crying out loud, I'm quite lucky to know that my parent's still do care. And now for the last category that I will be writing in this blog entry...


Princess
Yes blog. You know it. Your virtual ears are practically bleeding with every mention of her. You get irritated with how gentle my typing becomes with the mere mention of her. Deal with it. Anyway, I find it funny how things fall into place. I mentioned to you previously that I was finally able to say good-bye (for good) to my past during the UST Quad-Centennial Celebration. Little did I know that two weeks from that date, I would get to meet the Princess. I call this wonderful lady "Princess" because she literally grew up to be a pampered brat so to speak. Who knew that within a span of a few months, I would become her confidant, her retainer, her "best friend" in the office? Yes blog, I know that she has a boyfriend. Which makes my situation quite... ironic... You dear blog, of all people should know that for the last couple of years, I was hostile to people who either let a third party infiltrate their relationship or be a third party themselves. Now... I'm walking that very thin red line of being a best friend and being an idiot. And for all of my self-righteous rage in the past, I couldn't even control my heart now... Which was something I took pride of before.

I have no idea why but recently, for no reason at all, the Princess' buddies would tell her that they saw me in the vicinity and that if the Princess is nowhere in sight, her own buddies would tell me where she is even though I didn't ask about her... Is there really something going on between me and the Princess? If there is, is it becoming that obvious to people? I have to admit that it's been a very long time since I've felt like this. It's actually been a very long time since I've felt really "happy" in this department, wrong as the situation may be. To quote a college friend of mine who was able to read a number of my blog entries related to the Princess: "RB, I've got to meet this girl. I've never seen you this tortured, this crazy before... Not even Azy was able to do that you." I still have no plans of abandoning my principles of not being a third party... But now I realize why some people, people who had a track record for being good, straight-laced and whatnots, suddenly do the unthinkable all in the name of their heart's happiness.

Well blog, this is pretty long for a blog entry but do cut me some slack. I've got a lot of things to attend after the Holy Week's been said and done and this is the only time I can mull over the things that have been happening to me lately.