Doing what is right

Hello blog.

Yes, I know, it's been a while... Things have been rather busy these past couple of months since my last post...

What's that? How's the Princess you ask? Well, she and I still close friends. If my life were a sitcom or some similar program, the Princess is one of those newly introduced characters in the story to quickly become a regular in the series for better or for worse. As you can imagine from my last blog entry, I've decided to stop being an asshole so to speak. Yes, I know I'm not getting any younger and that I should start looking for a suitable lifelong partner but my conscience won't let me hear the end of it if it's about the Princess.

I do admit that I still do like her, truth be told, she's somehow managed to carve a special place in my heart without her knowing it... But, sorry for those who wish for me and the Princess to be together but I've decided to do the right thing just as I've written in my last blog entry.

Yes blog, what is it? Can't you let me finish my monologue without interrupting me? Oh, you're asking me if I'm hurting? What do you think? Isn't it obvious? Yes, dear blog. My heart is hurting like there's no tomorrow if you want some clarification. Hn? You're half-expecting me to go to my silent corner and cry like before with that lady who tore my heart apart into a million pieces and flushed it down the lavatory? Sorry buddy but I've already graduated from that. Crying won't get me anywhere just as it hasn't got me anywhere all those years ago. I'd rather stomach whatever pain I'm feeling right now. I'm a masochist you say? Maybe. I guess that's the price I have to pay when I fell for the Princess... Someone who's become so close to my heart yet at the same time so very far away.

Again, as painful as it is, I'm sticking to my guns. I'm sticking to my principles. I'm doing the right thing. I'll still be her friend... I'll still be her retainer and confidant... But I will never do anything to mess up her life or mine.